I’ve been trying to think of my next post to publish with varying drafts being created over the last few weeks with minimal success in actually publishing anything.
And then something happened. I passed out at work and have felt light headed ever since. I didn’t feel unwell and after numerous tests, there hasn’t been anything flagged that highlights why I’m feeling like this. So what has caused this sudden change in my almost healthy life?
A glimer into my inner workings. I am a perfectionist. I am obsessive in things being done correctly. My memory isn’t awesome and I will often complete things in a roundabout way to ensure all aspects are done rather than being streamlined. I get anxious about things that I cannot control but try to, and place a great amount of pressure on myself to be liked by all and keep in everyone’s good books.
I don’t think I can be that person anymore. It’s making me ill. I suffered from stress within a previous job, but couldn’t see the impact it was having on me until I was hospitalised and got a new job. However, my day-to-day working hasn’t changed and my processes and thoughts are still the same.
My first task – take care of my body and mind. I’m going to juice some fruit.
Jess x x x